Someone asked me why I was driving all that way just for a few hours. I answered before I realized it. I said, "Because I can." As I drove those now familiar roads, I thought about my answer. I am in a time and season of my life that for now I can go when I want to. I still had to rearrange the schedule and provide for the little one, but we are all in a season of life that allows for these last minute decisions.
As I thought about all of that as I drove, I called my wonderful husband. I said thank you for being a large part of why I can. Because of decisions and provisions made through the years by him, I can. Because of sacrifices by him to allow me to have a relationship with my daughter, she actually made that phone call. The one that asked. The one that I answered with I can.
As I pulled into her driveway, I received a phone call from my sweet son-in-law. He did not know that I was in his driveway. He called for another reason. But I got the chance to share with him too. I said thank you for loving my daughter so well. For providing for her and for caring for her. He thanked me for being there when he wasn't. I explained to him that the blessing was all mine. All girls need their moms throughout life. Whether mom is actually able to be there or not, there are times in every girls' life that she just needs her mom. And this time I was there. Because I can.
It won't always be this easy. I can't possibly be everywhere that my girls need or want me. But for today I can. And I am thankful. And grateful. And blessed. I sat in that driveway waiting for my daughter to arrive home from work and I thanked Jesus. For the blessings of being a mom. For the Grace given me through the years with all the wrong decisions made. The hurtful words spoken. The failures and the flaws. It is only through His mercy and forgiveness that I can be a mom. That I survived this long with my relationships with my daughters in tact. I didn't do a lot of it right or even well but because of Jesus, I can rest in the blessings. Because of Jesus, I can.
For I can do everything through Christ,
who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:13
This is such a sweet post! I know how she feels and I know she's thankful for you!
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