A Parent's Peek

I am still getting used to the changes in our family and in our home. Dinner for three is different for us. Great and fun but different.


Sending my second daughter off to college was different too. I thought it would be somehow easier or I would be more prepared after doing it already. But I was wrong. It was the same feeling when we drove away that afternoon of move in day. That indescribable feeling that a part of you is being ripped away. She was so ready and so prepared and so was I for that matter. But the feelings still came.


Life continues no matter what our circumstances are. Have you noticed that? Everyone just keeps on doing their thing even though our life has drastically changed. I think it takes moms a little longer after each change to catch back up. I still have those mornings when I just want it all to go back to the way it was. When this was a home of little girls full of busy schedules and lots to talk about. When they all needed me to help them make the right choice or listen to the stories of their day.


As I was journaling this morning and feeling a little sorry for  myself, the Lord reminded me that His mercies are new every morning. His faithfulness is great and what He began in my girls' hearts and lives will be carried to completion in His way and in His timing. I simply need to choose to look at it with His perspective.


We went to Athens on Sunday for a parent's peek at sorority life. So fun to see all the new faces and friends. It felt a little strange to see her be so comfortable in a surrounding that I knew nothing about. It was her life. I was just allowed a peek. As I thought about that this morning, I realized that the choices she had made were good. They were actually the choices I would have made. I would have picked that sorority and the friends we met were the girls that I would have wanted her to pick. She is figuring it all out in her own way but that peek gave me comfort.


This morning the Lord gave me a peek through His eyes. A reminder that as I stand in the gap for my girls He is on the front lines with them. They may be out of my physical reach and away from my audible advice but they know that I am here if they need me. And for a moment He let me see that she was listening all those years...