Reflections on a Rainy Day

I am having a hard time getting motivated this morning. I am sitting in my chair next to the window listening to the rain and just enjoying the quiet solitude of stillness. My mind has been wandering all morning. I have just been sitting in His presence listening. 


I hear the birds chirping. I hear the rain dripping off the tree outside my window. I hear the coffee pot downstairs beep as it turns itself off.  My dog is snoring. I can hear him all the way upstairs. The house is empty but my heart is full. I just got off the phone with my sweet husband. After a lengthy conversation about our opinions on several matters, the last thing I heard him say was that all he knew for sure was that he loved me very much. I hear God echo that He loves me very much too.


 My life has not always been like this. I have spent many years hearing other voices that drowned out the still small Voice. Danny and I were agreeing in our conversation this morning about some things that we want to change for our girls. Voices and things we heard that we want to break for the next generation. Not because the people or the voices were wrong or bad, but because we are looking back through a different lens. We are reflecting on the past as a tool to help us mirror the future. To shine the light of Truth and Restoration on the world around us. 


A year ago today I was preparing for major surgery. I was fearful. I was unsure. I was facing the unknown. I have been reflecting on the days that lead up to my surgery. I had been at the home of a dear friend and church member that had died unexpectedly. The shock and sadness were overwhelming. The only thing people could do was just be together. Be there for the children. Be there for the husband. My fears of being put to sleep were overtaking me in that place. Fear is not a fun place to dwell.


In the middle of a home filled with the shock of death, my pastor's wife asked if she could pray with me. Right there, in a bedroom upstairs, we prayed. She helped me to release some of my fears. To hear what God was telling me about why I was afraid. To hear that Voice assure me that all would be okay. In the middle of a place that was fresh with fear, He met me and stilled my fearful heart.


He will meet you too. Right where you are today. In the middle of a fearful circumstance. In the middle of a scary situation. In the middle of a fallen world full of yuck and hard stuff. He is there. His Voice is strong and full of compassion. Listen. He will speak. I promise.

Listen, heavens, I have something to tell you. 

Attention, earth, I've got a mouth full of words. 

My teaching, let it fall like a gentle rain, 

my words arrive like morning dew, 

like a sprinkling rain on new grass, 

like spring showers on the garden.  

Deuteronomy 32:1-2  the message